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Monday, September 20, 2010

Sometimes i wonder if i'm doing the right thing..
i know there are still bad news lingering around me,
its either i should not know or i have not known yet.
my heart is very heavy, i still feel so sad. sometimes i
almost gave up but i held on as long as i can still take
it. i was taken for granted. i was kept in the dark
about everything. though i can feel it is happening i
cant back myself up cause i've no evidence..

Few months alrdy, i have not picked myself up. i
thought i did, then i realised i am still hurt and worst,
i still teared at times when it got so bad. it sounded
stupid to brood over these but im sorry i cant help it.
i am still sad. its been hard, very hard to forget everything.
adding to that there are no physical efforts to make me
feel better..

I only hope tearing stops, cause it hurts. insyallah, i will
overcome it.. but it takes lots of time.. and hopefully i see effort
to atleast comfort me a lil. hopefully. i pray every night,
for if one day it was not meant to be, please let it be a
smooth separation. coz being enemies would
be my last wish..

Only when someone walk out on you then you'll realise how
much u need the person.. By then, its too late.

♥ 1:40 AM