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Friday, June 12, 2009

I was reading kak Nana's blog(Dian in my links), she said,

".... But i've been wondering. Ever since dats grandma gone,i've not ben crying like really bad? I mean i cry,but,not really like bad crying. I merely was just like crying??Confused? I AM. Been thinking about it too. Nico too is experiencing the same thing. ... We both concluded that maybe the time has yet to come that we really feel it?? I mean,cos,we here still do think she is here u know? ...."

NICO is Berd btw. his family name.

When she talked about that, it reminds me of my baby..
last two/three days we were having a slight tiff early in
the morning, so i totally ignored him and go back to sleep.
then he called, when i answer he kept quiet. suddenly he
burst into tears, really loud wails u know. even when he
broke the news his grandma passed away wasn't
as terrible as this.

My god. i swear i got a shock of my life. haha. i kept asking him
why, he wont answer, he kept on wailing like a baby. aku mati
kata siaa. takot gegerl kejap. cause i was afraid he's like
that because of ME, you see or not !! haha. we were fighting what !!
if really because of me he like that, aku ketok sey kepala aku
dengan botol...... plastic. hahaha.

Finally when he regained 2% composure, he said, "baby......
nyai da takde? nyai mane? i nak nyai. nyai mane !! i rindu nyaiii.
NYAIIII !!!!!!" and he really shout calling out his late grandma's
name. seriously very sad. then i cried. cause he kept wailing wanting
his nyai, haiz.

I try pujuk2 him la. "baby... dont cry please. kan nyai
da takde baby..." ahhhh itu parttt, i regretted saying that last
sentence ah, tak sengaje sey. after i said that he mcm kene rasuk
like that. he kept on saying, "nyaii... nico nak nyai !!"
sumpah at that point i cried. pastu whatever i said he wont reply
anything.

What i did next, i just put down the phone, gi mandi fastgame
rabak, dengan tak makeup, masai-queen flagged a cab down to his place.
when i reached he still tersedu-sedu, he peluk his arwah nyai's
sejadah and telekong tightly and he tried to sleep, but his eyes blinking
looking at me. awwww my baby. i feel sooo sad u know.

I played with his eyebrows, something his arwah nyai loves
to do to him, coincidentally i liked too. hah. i stopped when i saw
tears welling up in his eyes. haiz. then he hugged me and said,
"baby.. i dun want alone2." ahhh, so sweet like that la.

Then i realised, he cannot be left all alone2. futhermore at that point
of time he's at ghim moh mah, where he stay wif his late grandma.
and he slept in her room somemore. thats why he kept thinking and
missing her so much. so sad la. haiz. but what to do kan. now he's
okay, so far so good. i make sure i never leave him alone2 la. hehe.

Oh yes, so this story made me think, based of kak nana's entry... baby
alrdy felt the loss of his beloved grandma? maybe he felt she's gone la,
but he have not come to terms with that, yet. thats why when he
stayed at jurong, he and kakak still thought grandma's there lying
on the bed. but when he balik ghim moh, he knows grandma's gone.
nta la. aku plak mana nye psychologist eh nak nilai2 otak orang. ahahha !!

Random pictures okay !! asik words je, korang pun satu2 jadi letters tak
lama. hahah. my orientation pics !! amazing race at airport T2, T3.
tu pun parah. haha. we were told to find these places, then take a group
photo infront of the shop or counters la. sukeria la kite. and my team
came in second !! syabasss, walaupun tak dapat disunting jadi artiste !! hahah.
k bye, enjoyyyyyyyyy.

ACAHSEYY

& this is a picture of baby's TP mates cum bandmate,
including me OF COURSE. hahaha. my baby's the vocalist of the
band, i dunno how he manage to become the vocalist but....
he is la. i dunwant to say unfortunately la. but... i did ?? hahaha.
k diam la acah. k so.. yah. ape yg yah? hahaha. ok ok ok so..
this is the picture la !!!! haha. aku da ngantok la siti. haha.

ACAHSEYY

& .. i think i'm quitting soon. quit what? for you to know, for
me to know also. so if u know u tell me, cause i also dunno quit what.
HAHAHAHA. pape la. baby irritating cause he suddenly PMS
talk like what like that. but today im happy, cause i slapped him
eight times. four right cheek four left cheek. hahah. cause he
jahat. mulut mintak kene sumbat eggplant rebus. why eggplant,
cause i logged in my FB and my friend gave me an eggplant
as a gift in Barn Buddy game. wahlao nonsense. k bye !! love
you all. don't take drugs k. HAHAHA tibe2 jek. k bye again.
see you next time !! chalo betehhh.

♥ 2:59 AM