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Sunday, May 31, 2009

I very stress you know. haiz. VERY. just two days and i'm already stressed up.
i know la i shouldnt be complaining and all, but haiz... i'm sad.

My baby is really seriously not in his right state of mind.
his mood really change very drastically.
anytime, anywhere.
that, pressure me a hell lot. at the same time, i pitied him.
seriously kesian sey baby aku. haiz.

I have to have lots and lots of patience. if not for a changed me,
i would already be one angry hulk. but no, this is a serious issue..
haiz. endure acah, endure. i really can, im just afraid i'd suddenly burst
and get angry. i DON'T want that to happen, i shouldnt, seriously.
that will make his situation far more worst.

To make matters worst, he's very secretive. haiz, the only negative point in him that i saw. and i hated it sooooooooooooo much to this very day. but its in him, just like my temper, its in me, i cant possibly change it over the night. though i am slowly controlling it, hehe. oh wow i actually smiled. i duno la, haiz, i love him alot you see, i cant bear to see him sad and down and whatsnot !! i always want him to smile and laugh and joke around, that will always make me happy no matter how shitty im feeling. if he's moody, i will feel moody too. if i were him, i WILL NEED him very very very very much to make me forget the situation. but for him, he will only need himself, maybe not me at all at the time being. haiz. we have two very different personalities, total opposites. sometimes we click, sometimes it sucks. arghhh !! i dunola.

Ble jadi gile aku. takpe, sabarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr k acah. he will cheer up soon. just give him some time to be by himself, to pluck back his courage to move on and to accept the serious fact..

Baby, i understand its a very difficult time for you.
Just don't forget that im always here by your side, i will try to leave you alone
for the time being. maybe you just need to be by yourself.
any time that you feel you need to let something out, im always here for you.
even if its something redundant to you, for me it means alot. cause you actually
confided in me rather than being secretive and keep to yourself.

I will be a veryyy patient gf, i will wait for you to get back on your feet and be
my Nury that i've known all this while. be strong my baby, no use brooding over what
has happened, everyone knows how much she means to you. & she wouldnt want to
see you sad my dear. cheer up, will you? iloveyou. :)

Enough said. i'd better go sleep. baby, i'm sorry for this entry.
just need to let something out. im fine.

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